Row, Even When The Tides Are High
In 23 days I move into a new place. Nothing special really, I’m more excited about having carpet especially since a new vacuum was purchased. Otherwise nothing new. It’s a one bedroom with a study and one bath, larger than the old place but not much of a difference. Not exactly sure what the study will be used for but definitely not a child’s room. All necessary precautions have been taken. 🙂
I miss my Vaeh but I’m totally ok. I’ve said my peace to the mother and I’m proud of the length of time it took to speak. That’s maturity. That means I thought about it. Normally going off at the very start would be the first plan. But I did well! Go me!
I still have a ton of stuff to get rid of before the move. Baby clothing possibly and the pack and play. So that should go quickly a lot of families are in need.
I thought the other day driving home that I’d rather save a child and sacrifice having my own. Although having my own was already taken out of the deck anyway. At least not right now! That would not be so good, ha! But i’d take whatever is thrown at me. Carter’s therapist and I were just talking about that when she asked about Nevaeh. She was also trying after they miscarried but they said if it happens great if not they must keep moving and focus on the move they have coming up. Which is how it should be. It’s just tough some times u want to plan it, do it and it happens. But not all of us are fertile Mertils lol.
I’m following a family on YouTube who I just found, that has lost two children (stillborn) and she was pregnant again in the video I saw that was just this past winter. Yikes! She has got a ton of courage and faith. I quickly scrolled up in hopes that this baby had made it this time around. She seemed like a sweet girl and her husband and her have been through a lot. Sure enough they had a little boy this year! She said she prayed that this baby she would be able to keep forever. In this case those prayers were answered. I was happy to see her holding him that must have been the greatest thing ever!
We or should I say I considered fostering and still may do it but probably once things are all settled. We will see that’s a big decision to make.
We will see where this journey takes us.
Until then we must keep rowing!
Karla
Faith. Love. Fate. 